Tomorrow is the big day. We have to be at the hospital bright and early at 5:30am. They should be taking me back around 7:30am. Today I have been pretty good. Just trying to get things together and organized. We dropped Baby C off this evening at my parents, and I carried her to bed for the last time for 4-6 weeks. I know she is in great hands and will have a blast with my nieces and nephews.
Yesterday, we had an early birthday party for C since her birthday is next week, and we won't really be able to do much. It was just a family thing, but it was a lot of fun and just my family makes for a big party. Afterwards, my sister-in-law organized a great toast to say ta-ta to the ta-tas. My brother, sister-in-law, Mom, and Aunt Phylis all said wonderful things as we toasted. It was extremely emotional, but it was great to have everyone there and involved. The kids loved drinking their sparkling cider in the fancy glasses. They also created a pink chain with some pretty funny things on them. Below are some of the funny ones.
- I love you, Sissy. You're the best! I hope you like your brand new breasts.
- You're nearing the end. You can't loose! Hope your surgery goes well, and you like your new boobs!
- A chart of boob sizes: A - almost a boob, B - barely there, C - can't complain, D - dang, DD - dang dang, E - enough, F - fake, G - get a reduction. Hope this list is helpful.
- Boob Voyage
- A, B, C, D, E, F, G......which size boob should I be?
I will have Steve post updates over the next few days to keep everyone updated. Thanks for the continued prayers and thoughts!!!!
Sunday, September 30, 2012
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
Survivors
It's amazing what wonderful and suportive people come into your life along the way. I just wanted to give a shout out to some who have really made a difference, no matter how small, in my fight.
1st and most important is Alexis - I met Alexis through my girl Erin. We saw each other on occasion during social stuff. When Erin told me she had breast cancer, I was so heartbroken. Although we were not close, I really felt for her. I wish in many ways I reached out to her, but like most people who have not gone though something like this, you don't know what to say or do in these situations. Hearing about her diagnosis made me get the lump checked out a few months later (she was only a year older than me). Whether it was really nothing or something more serious at that time, we probably will never know (I was diagnosed a year later). But, Alexis was the first people I reached out to for information and support. She responded immediately with tons of great information and tips. A few weeks later, she sent me a great care package of things I could use. I am so very thankful that life put her in my life, and she could be there for me during the most scariest time. Steve and I scoured her blog for more information in the weeks following my diagnosis. I continue to find encouragement through her posts. Alexis, THANK YOU for everything.
2nd and just as important, is my prior boss Debbie K. She was diagnosed at a time when I was in my early 20's, very shortly before I decided to leave for my current employer. I am sure my leaving was not the best time to be jumping ship, but Debbie in no way deterred me from leaving and even encouraged my decisions. She had my best interest at heart, even in a time when I know things were hard personally. Had she really wanted to, I know she could have talked me into staying for her. Debbie was top on the list of people I called after I was diagnosed. I knew she had gone to Hopkins, and she was right there with numbers and names of people to contact there. She stays in touch, and I know she is there if I ever need her. THANK YOU, Deb.
My Aunt Phyllis, who was diagnosed at my age. She was there with e-mails of encouragement, cards, and we had a great phone conversation just last week. She is a survivor 30+ years, which is so very encouraging. Love ya, Aunt P.
Mandy, who I found through a co-worker Mike, who went outside his comfort zone to offer her contact information to me. We e-mailed and keep in touch though Facebook. Mandy was a little farther through her treatments when we first connected, and it was nice to hear her thoughts on Taxol and treatment in general. She has two adorable little kids, and I love to see the pictures and see her posts. I also found her blog very helpful. Thanks to both Mike and Mandy.
Laura, who reached out on this blog after finding me through Alexis. She is always encouraging with her comments. Her blog is full of great information. Thanks Laura, for reaching out.
Joyce, who I met at my girl Christel's bridal shower a few months back. She sat down and talked about how she was diagnosed in her early 30's when her kids were little. Also a survivor of many years, she was so comforting and caring as we talked about it. She talked about what she had gone through, and it was wonderful that she stopped to talk with me. Just a few weeks back at Christel's wedding, she stopped me and again was so caring and supportive. She said she would be praying and thinking about me and encouraged me to stay strong and keep smiling.
Rebbecca, who I found through a wonderful organization called Bright Pink. Well, actually Bright Pink found her for me through their pink pal program. We e-mail and talk about whatever. She is very upfront and candid, which I like. We were matched based on some similar traits we have in common in our diagnosis and treatments and the ones I wanted in a pal. I wanted someone who could relate more specifically to my situation as it relates to prevention and some of the decisions I have made or will be making. She has a great story. I want to share her video of when she spoke at a SGC race YouTube, which she just shared with me the other day.
I look forward to being there for other survivors like these ladies have been there for me in some capacity over the last several months. You never know who you are going to touch and how even the smallest things mean a lot to someone who is working through the process.
1st and most important is Alexis - I met Alexis through my girl Erin. We saw each other on occasion during social stuff. When Erin told me she had breast cancer, I was so heartbroken. Although we were not close, I really felt for her. I wish in many ways I reached out to her, but like most people who have not gone though something like this, you don't know what to say or do in these situations. Hearing about her diagnosis made me get the lump checked out a few months later (she was only a year older than me). Whether it was really nothing or something more serious at that time, we probably will never know (I was diagnosed a year later). But, Alexis was the first people I reached out to for information and support. She responded immediately with tons of great information and tips. A few weeks later, she sent me a great care package of things I could use. I am so very thankful that life put her in my life, and she could be there for me during the most scariest time. Steve and I scoured her blog for more information in the weeks following my diagnosis. I continue to find encouragement through her posts. Alexis, THANK YOU for everything.
2nd and just as important, is my prior boss Debbie K. She was diagnosed at a time when I was in my early 20's, very shortly before I decided to leave for my current employer. I am sure my leaving was not the best time to be jumping ship, but Debbie in no way deterred me from leaving and even encouraged my decisions. She had my best interest at heart, even in a time when I know things were hard personally. Had she really wanted to, I know she could have talked me into staying for her. Debbie was top on the list of people I called after I was diagnosed. I knew she had gone to Hopkins, and she was right there with numbers and names of people to contact there. She stays in touch, and I know she is there if I ever need her. THANK YOU, Deb.
My Aunt Phyllis, who was diagnosed at my age. She was there with e-mails of encouragement, cards, and we had a great phone conversation just last week. She is a survivor 30+ years, which is so very encouraging. Love ya, Aunt P.
Mandy, who I found through a co-worker Mike, who went outside his comfort zone to offer her contact information to me. We e-mailed and keep in touch though Facebook. Mandy was a little farther through her treatments when we first connected, and it was nice to hear her thoughts on Taxol and treatment in general. She has two adorable little kids, and I love to see the pictures and see her posts. I also found her blog very helpful. Thanks to both Mike and Mandy.
Laura, who reached out on this blog after finding me through Alexis. She is always encouraging with her comments. Her blog is full of great information. Thanks Laura, for reaching out.
Joyce, who I met at my girl Christel's bridal shower a few months back. She sat down and talked about how she was diagnosed in her early 30's when her kids were little. Also a survivor of many years, she was so comforting and caring as we talked about it. She talked about what she had gone through, and it was wonderful that she stopped to talk with me. Just a few weeks back at Christel's wedding, she stopped me and again was so caring and supportive. She said she would be praying and thinking about me and encouraged me to stay strong and keep smiling.
Rebbecca, who I found through a wonderful organization called Bright Pink. Well, actually Bright Pink found her for me through their pink pal program. We e-mail and talk about whatever. She is very upfront and candid, which I like. We were matched based on some similar traits we have in common in our diagnosis and treatments and the ones I wanted in a pal. I wanted someone who could relate more specifically to my situation as it relates to prevention and some of the decisions I have made or will be making. She has a great story. I want to share her video of when she spoke at a SGC race YouTube, which she just shared with me the other day.
I look forward to being there for other survivors like these ladies have been there for me in some capacity over the last several months. You never know who you are going to touch and how even the smallest things mean a lot to someone who is working through the process.
Saturday, September 8, 2012
16 Balloons
16 chemo treatments = 16 pink balloons!!!!!! Thanks, Kevin & Julie, for the idea and for celebrating my last day of chemo.
Friday, September 7, 2012
Chemo 100%
OMG............it's official............................I am 100% through a total of 16 chemo treatments. Today is a good day. I'm so excited. There really are no words to describe how happy I am right now.
In honor of today, my girl Julie had a great idea to release 16 pink balloons into the air. So, tonight that's what we are going to do to celebrate this huge milestone in our journey. Hopefully, we get some good pictures that I can share.
I would like to take a moment for a HUGE THANK YOU to my girl's - Emily, Erin, Lauren, Julie, & Christel. They provided chemo presents for each treatment. They were just small things, but I looked forward to opening them. I can't list everyone individually, but I have been blessed with lots of love from lots of people, including parents, siblings, aunts, uncles, co-workers, friends and co-survivors. I received texts, cards, flowers, food and LOTS of LOVE. If you showed me your love, I noticed and I appreciated everything even if I have not thanked you in person. And I can't thank everyone enough for all their help with Charlotte. I have needed lot of people to help watch her, and someone always came to the rescue. Steve deserves an EXTRA HUGE thank you and big pat on the back. He went to 15 chemo treatments with me and every doctors appointment I have had.
Even though I still have more milestones to go before I am officially "done", chemo in my book is one of the biggest and most difficult. I made it through and am coming out the other side smiling and extremely positive!!!!!!
In honor of today, my girl Julie had a great idea to release 16 pink balloons into the air. So, tonight that's what we are going to do to celebrate this huge milestone in our journey. Hopefully, we get some good pictures that I can share.
I would like to take a moment for a HUGE THANK YOU to my girl's - Emily, Erin, Lauren, Julie, & Christel. They provided chemo presents for each treatment. They were just small things, but I looked forward to opening them. I can't list everyone individually, but I have been blessed with lots of love from lots of people, including parents, siblings, aunts, uncles, co-workers, friends and co-survivors. I received texts, cards, flowers, food and LOTS of LOVE. If you showed me your love, I noticed and I appreciated everything even if I have not thanked you in person. And I can't thank everyone enough for all their help with Charlotte. I have needed lot of people to help watch her, and someone always came to the rescue. Steve deserves an EXTRA HUGE thank you and big pat on the back. He went to 15 chemo treatments with me and every doctors appointment I have had.
Even though I still have more milestones to go before I am officially "done", chemo in my book is one of the biggest and most difficult. I made it through and am coming out the other side smiling and extremely positive!!!!!!
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
The Date is Set
The date for my bilateral mastectomy has been scheduled. 10/1 is the big day
and will start bright and early. I have lots to get done before I am down and out
for a few weeks. We are still working out the details of caring for me and
Charlotte while I am re-cooperating. We will most likely be spending a lot of
time at my parents the weeks following surgery. I will not be able to pick Char up
for awhile.
Friday will be my last and final chemo treatment. I am definitely excited and looking forward to some increase in my energy levels. I will miss all my nurses and seeing their smiling faces every Friday, but I will be so happy to be done. We actually took Charlotte to chemo last week, and she was such a hit with everyone. She was such a bright light smiling at everyone.
I am still pretty much side effect free from my Taxol treatments. The only lingering one is fatigue. I have been very fortunate that I am not dealing with the common ones most people experience.
Friday will be my last and final chemo treatment. I am definitely excited and looking forward to some increase in my energy levels. I will miss all my nurses and seeing their smiling faces every Friday, but I will be so happy to be done. We actually took Charlotte to chemo last week, and she was such a hit with everyone. She was such a bright light smiling at everyone.
I am still pretty much side effect free from my Taxol treatments. The only lingering one is fatigue. I have been very fortunate that I am not dealing with the common ones most people experience.
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